Hi my sunflowers,

This is my first time blogging and i don't really know how to write. Literally i am new to this writing stuff, but lately i feel like i wanna write so here i am. I maybe have some old blog experience and it was like nearly ten years ago. Somehow, when i read all of my past i felt so stupid and cringe over the stuff. hahahahaha, well it all in the past. and let bygones be bygones right ?

It happened that i was just celebrated a birthday party on 24th December, yup its my birthday party. I hope my mom doesn't resented for giving birth of me, cause right now i felt clueless and hopeless. It happened sometime maybe once in two months, but lately this feeling appeared all the time and i kinda regret of something. But i don't know what. I felt like crying, frustrated, angry at the same time. I don't know if other people feel the same or what.  

In my mind maybe its depression or anxiety or an ADHD !!! maybe it is or maybe its not. hmm , maybe stress over my job or my boss or my past relationship. I broke up with someone on September, and it already 4 months. Right now, i think its not the time to talk about him, will write about him later. 

XOXO, shak